You've just been through the tempest of setbacks and then through the blind alley. You're down and you're trying to wash your face in the scummy mud water. You think that this is the only way forward. It may be a way but it is not going forwards. All this gloominess is just ushering the eclipse. And you know I plan to share my time with you. I'm trying my best to be your mountain, not to be scaled and beaten, but to fend you from the black clouds.
I can see you cry without any tear. Fighting the world, fighting me. Telling me to go away, to leave you alone, to let you be. But you ask something which is not easy. Cause time holds more than a fight ever can.
I miss my friend, the one who smiled and brought sunshine to the subterrane. Did I lose you somewhere in these bitter woods?
I try to be your mountain, not to be scaled and beaten but to fend you from the black clouds. I'm here, beside you, not ahead or before. Taking each step together, one day one climb. We took this as a married adventure and not as a strifeful race. And this unreal and unwanted antagonism is putting tension on the rope that's holding us together. I know I can't take this trek alone, without you. The blue devils are telling you that everything, everyone, I are against you. You're going down in your own eyes. But in my eyes, you'll just find concern and a sad fright, for losing a great friend, a companion.
It's getting darker with time, and the horrid bats are emerging. Dark creatures that can search to dig your happiness even without eyes. I'm waving my hands, all around you, to make them go, to turn them into butterflies. They trouble you, and this is one thing I, your friend, can't see.
Truth is, I'd lift a thousand stones on my back just to make your's lighter. But you're still trying to budge me away. If you wish, I'll leave but only when the dawn breaks. Not yet.
You've slipped once and the scraped knees are giving you pain, burning your insides. But you don't become a failed hiker because of one fall. You've got to brush your knees, pick yourself up and continue with the impending climb that'll take you to the glorious peak that awaits you.
The poison in you and hence in me is not meant to stay. It'll go once you smile that radiating smile.
The poison in you and hence in me is not meant to stay. It'll go once you smile that radiating smile.
as far as writing and expression go, this is a matchless piece. seemingly, however, this write up is more profound than mere literary penchant and articulation at work, it is much more.
ReplyDeletei do not know the cause of the disparaging anxiety in relation to your friend, but it is clear that you feel a lot for them, so much so that you can use your command over the pen to express your own concern and solidarity with them. however, i am very cautious in matters of feelings not entirely my own. the only person, afterall, whose feelings i can trust 100% are but my own. to speak on behalf of someone else, or of their unspoken misery, no matter how close you think they are to you and you are to them, is treading on sticky ground. i do not know the context in which the piece was written, so i will abstain from further speculation.
i will reiterate that the write-up is excellent in its generous use of metaphors, imagery and what-all big words invented by selfish poets for their own appreciation. keep it up!
Devika, this is so beautiful. I could go around quoting some of the things here.
ReplyDeleteIt almost brought tears to my eyes, because I can so well relate to what you tried to express here.
Thanks Bharat and Snigdha.
ReplyDeleteIt's not an easy emotion to express and it's not easy living it either. :)